Wordless Wednesday – 4:20


Day One

Day one did not necessarily suck as much as I thought it would. Nobody got beat or yelled at. In fact I laughed a lot of it off.

I have always told other people whom aired their personal grievances with me “if you are not happy, make a change”. I realized it was time to take my own advise.

I did not smoke today, it has been 24 hours. Last night before bed I smoked the last smoke.

I also came to the conclusion that nobody could tell me how to quit or what I need to do to get it done. I had to come up with that on my own. I will share my plan with you…

I still do not consider myself a non-smoker. (It’s only been 24 hours)

Online, I have read that the first 3 days are the hardest. I can tell you from my own experience that that is bull shit. This is the 2nd time I quit, the 8th, 9th, 10th… Days are the hardest. For me anyway, that is when the feeling of success sinks in. And it’s also when I started feeling like I could really use a cigarette. …only one… K. No more than 3 a day… Crap.

Today went ok, my habit smokes were hard to avoid, it got really bad around 1 pm today. After an hour and a half long craving I had to punish myself with the Nicorette spray. That shit is absolutely nasty, but it worked. Even as I write this I have a mild craving.

Two days ago I invested in the NicoDerm patch and slapped it on right away. Yes 2 days ago and yes I still smoked in the patch (Don’t do that it’s not healthy or safe). Every cigarette made me more ill. But that’s what I needed. (Oh and some really fucked up dreams, but that’s another post.) Like I said, I needed to come up with my own plan.

Tomorrow is day 2… Keep banging on, banging on your drum…

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